3 days ago I was freezing with a sweater under a quilt. Now I'm literally sweating through my pajamas. TN is weird, man.

So video game addiction is when you have 10 minutes to kill, you play a round of Left 4 Dead. Or stay up an hour later just to finish the mission. Or get excited about playing tomorrow. I enjoy playing online multiplayers when my teammates are nice and use their microphones. It's more fun that way. I didn't think I'd like that. I wonder how many girls play L4D. I should do a tally of how many games I play and how many girls speak. Or maybe the odds of two girls in the same game are very low. I could fool the odds by not speaking...

Zombies- I can has. What is it about zombies that are so appealing? They're like this generation's vampire. I know vampires are still popular, but how many vampire games are there? Now how many zombie games are there? People love zombies in a different way. Hm, this would make a good article for my eventual blog. Zombies vs. vampires, pirates vs. ninjas, etc., applied to games.

Short post today. I shall quote Louis: "Pills, here! Grabbin' pills." The interwebs makes me happy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nKu60YKqsvs

Lots to say about a relatively short break, so I'll break it into two parts. I came home to find lovely weather in Hilton Head, so we walked the dogs on the beach and in the nature preserve. My cat is doing much better; despite her failing kidneys, the daily fluids and tons of wet and dry food have given her fur back its smoothness, resilient skin, healthy purr, cuddling senses, active voice, and even some fat. I can't feel her hip bones and ribs anymore, and she is almost like her old self, which makes me feel much better leaving her for another 6 months. We've enjoyed sleeping together, and right now she's curled up on her back, exposing her belly with her paws curled in the air. Dad loves Glamour, Thomas' new sister, in the feleuk cat room, and she's very sweet, mostly black with some white and boots with one black toe. Thomas and Glamour really like each other; they sleep together in the same bed— so cute!! Eugene is crusty and shaggy, and Tilly is the same. I have determined (and Kirsten agreed) that Eustace bears a certain resemblance to Sir Didymus from The Labyrinth (that 80s David Bowie movie, you know you saw it as a kid).

Xmas was very nice, I was happy with most of my gifts. A few games (Uncharted, Silent Hill: Homecoming, Alone in the Dark), some books (zombies, Japanese prints, a new Wicked series book, manga drawing), Xbox 360 wireless controller, bath stuff, cash, wind chimes. Nothing I really needed, but it was nice, and it was also nice to see how much everyone liked their gifts. I finally gave them their Japanese gifts, and I think they liked them overall. I also gave dad his book, the picture book me and Greg made from his story “Teenies in the Forest.” Oh, and we walked the dogs on the beach on Xmas day, which was pretty sweet. How many people can say that?

So, overall a nice xmas.

"In Fallout you can be a post-apocalyptic radioactive vampire." -Greg

So since I can’t talk for a while, I figured I should let everyone know why, what happened, etc. The first thing I want to say is I’M FINE!!!! Stop worrying, I’m not in pain, and I can talk perfectly well, but it will heal better if I don’t move my mouth.

A free gingival graft is a dental procedure where a layer of tissue is removed from the palate of the patient's mouth and then relocated to the site of gum recession. It is stitched into place and will serve to protect the exposed root as living tissue. The donor site will heal without damage. -Wikipedia

Day 1- The surgery. I was freaking out a little. I lied down in the chair, Greg talked to me while I got some oxygen, and I tried to relax. He had to leave, and they gave me some nitrous gas, but I was really starting to freak out so it did pretty much nothing the whole time. (That was weird- they said it would work, and it did when I was younger, but the only thing I felt was slightly tingly in my hands at one point.) They numbed my lower front tooth area (where I would be receiving the graft) and lip so I didn’t feel much down there.

I was freaking out and crying cause I DID NOT WANT that needle. I had read online there would be a lot of pain, so I was afraid. I didn’t want to feel the numbing needle in the roof of my mouth where they would be taking the gum tissue. I just kept crying and shivering, and every time I tried to calm down and they tried to go ahead I just lost it again. I could hear my heartbeat on the machine, which was weird but helped me try to calm down. Eventually I said to just do it and he told me to stop freaking out and calm down, and I closed my eyes and they put the needle in and it didn’t hurt; I could barely feel it go in.

After that, I was much better. I kept my eyes closed the whole time, and I started humming to focus on something. I played air Rock Band for a bit too. I didn’t really feel much, and it was so reassuring that I laughed at one point too. I think it was when he said they’d be doing more needles and I didn’t feel a thing. I could only really tell where they were working, and actually when they scraped the tooth to clean it I didn’t feel it, unlike the dentist who isn’t really gentle or precise about where the metal scraper thing goes. The only thing that hurt was how hard the periodontist held my lower lip. So, one quick, maybe 30-60 min. long procedure that wasn’t bad once it started.

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On the roof is an open wound that will scab over, so they put a thin plastic retainer that covers the whole roof. It made me gag a few times the 1st day, but now it’s just uncomfortable and I mess with it with my tongue. On the bottom front teeth is silly putty, or its medical equivalent. I can also feel the stitches on the back of the tooth; they feel like food string particles and I keep messing with them too, but it’s not like my tongue can really undo stitches (or can it?). It all comes out next Monday.

As soon as the surgery was over, I felt so relieved, and then the pain started. The first day hurt the worst; without any pain meds, the car ride was really bad, as was waiting for the meds (Tylenol 3). They sucked too; it took 45 min. to work and wore off after 2 hours. The periodontist called to ask if I had any problems (at night, which was nice), and I mentioned the meds, and he said buy some over the counter Advil/Motrin to supplement the Tylenol. The whole first day all I did was relax and play games.

So the basic rundown of recovery is this:

No more pain, except it hurts a little when I move my lower mouth a lot.
I can only eat really soft foods or liquids.
I’m supposed to take it easy.
I can brush my teeth anywhere except the areas of surgery.
I use a mouthwash twice a day to reduce bacteria/infection.
I am supposed to avoid lip/mouth movement, talking, smiling, laughing, singing, chewing in the surgical area, and “amorous activity” (quoted directly from the dr.’s info sheet).

They said it’d bleed, but it didn’t
They said it’d swell/bruise/hurt on top, but it didn’t (I look like I’m irritable and have an overbite though)

So I’m on Day 3, and I haven’t really gotten used to it. Here are some minor annoyances so far:

Eating feels so weird! I really hate doing it. I’ve been living off ice cream, milkshakes, macaroni, and soup. It’s not that I miss solid foods, it’s that I miss eating feeling normal. And I miss being full. My mouth also tastes kinda bad; like permanent morning mouth, since I’m not doing much with it.

The top retainer thing feels weird; I really don’t like it in my mouth, but the roof wound feels too weird to run my tongue over. It hurts my right molars for some reason. My lower tooth hurts a bit too, but it’s more of a dull, low throb. The pain meds don’t do anything, which is good since it doesn’t hurt much. They help a bit when I eat mush foods.

I also hate how people feel awkward around me! I feel like a retard, cause I really can talk fine, but I move my mouth less if I grunt, use hand motions/gestures, or talk using as little movement as possible. I also hate how they feel bad eating solid food or talking about it; I feel fine, and it wasn’t that bad a procedure. I wish I could speak; that would make it easier on others. I don’t mind charades and writing stuff down or whatever; it’s kind of fun, like I’m Sorcha from ‘Daughter of the Forest.’ I’m thinking of getting a small dry erase board to carry with me. :)

It’s funny; some people are much better at interpreting than others. Corinne and Greg are great at it; my boss at work is pretty bad at it. Luckily everyone at work is really cool; one lady encourages me to write everyone cause she knows it’s the doctor’s orders. The worst part is not even being able to smile. A smile can say a lot of things, which is important when you can’t talk. I’m afraid everyone will think I’m really unhappy and mean since I can’t even smile.
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So my weekend will be uneventful. Greg’s in Lexington so I won’t be tempted to talk to anyone, and Corinne and Adam are away too. I’ll be forced to work on thesis for once. I might update more. It really has been a long time since I posted; it’s all been on facebook notes. I’ll change that though, now that facebook sucks. I might put all my Japan notes on LJ and my comp. Long note, hope it was informative.

I've just read through chapter 100, volume 17 of the Fruits Basket manga in the past two days. I finally understand Ichi's sig, and find it amusing. I have also met all 12 members of the zodiac. And of all the things I've seen...
( Furuba spoilers )
I am loving this series. I am sad there's only 36 left... what will I do after that? I'm impressed at how well they did the anime version, well except for the Eng dub. I really like Toru now though, and I like all the characters more and more. It's so odd how well Radiohead seemed to fit the emo scenes, especially with Yuki. Now I've got Practical Magic on, and it's been pretty hit or miss. Sixpence works well too. Ah, the old cds... Shrek and Practical Magic. Ho lordy, now what... I can't keep reading these all night... can I? I've been all cave nerd this weekend. I suppose since mid terms are over I should go do something fun this week. I do want to go back to Kuzuha Mall, and the food store.

Ok I broke down, I'm on 117... I cant help it, that shit's addictive. I like writing, and I miss the US. I like my adventure, but it's not the same without close friends. I want to make friends, but it all seems so fleeting here. I'm gonna be a senior; it's hard not to think about partings and goodbyes right now. It's like I can see the timeline of everyone, but not me. There are three timelines, and I want one of them, but it's only a 1/3 chance. Here's hoping...

I miss the warmth
And I miss the sun
I miss the ocean
I miss everyone
And I miss the bridges
That span across the bay
Tonight, it seems like ages ago
-A Million Parachutes, by Sixpence none the richer

So just to let you guys know, I'm updating my Japan semester on Facebook. So don't expect many posts here, though I am reading posts off and on still, even if I don't always comment. I didn't know how to lock my past entries, and I don't want my parents reading this stuff, so yeah. Go to Facebook, go to my notes, post comments, etc. Wakate ne?

And I already have some quotes from my first day:
"Blame it on women. How dare you work and not make babies!"
"Here take this condom, put it on!"
-Fedorowicz

I'm actually starting to like Last Exile more now that we're into the later episodes. Everyone wants to get into Klaus's pants! It's really funny. All of a sudden, everyone on the ship got really horny. I'm half expecting the captain to start making out with Klaus. Hee hee, that would be kind of funny. I really want to see the fanfics for this show actually. I can see a lot of slashes...

I really should read something for extra credit for Creative Writing, but I don't think I'm gonna get an A in that class anyway, so why bother? I think it's impossible for anyone to get an A in that class. It really pisses me off.

More later. Quote too.

Long time no post. But I don't have a lot to say. I'm a pseudo-commuter and I just haven't had the time or energy to post. Okay, sure I had the time, but I didn't feel like spending my time on LJ. Captain Murphy, mine and Greg's cat, is being really cute right now. He's lying stretched out, but his back legs are completely flat ad straight out and his whole belly is exposed. I've never seen a cat sleep like him. His front paws are curled around his head like a normal cat. I feel bad because I missed Halloween. We only got one trick or treater. We attempted to make pumpkin pie, but the oven sucks. It burned on the outside and refuses to cook properly on the inside, no matter how long I put it in. I can't remember the last time I posted here. Kat's post on randomly generated fanfic icons is great. I spent half an hour giggling about Huck Finn and Forrest Gump. Hee hee. Redneck mating is teh funnies. Well, I have to sleep now. Maybe I'll post again soon. Ja ne.

So my sis is gone. Her room was like a small Lloyd room. It was really nice. I soooo want to pack right now. I just want to get away. I guess I'm just bored. I heard the coolest songs today. One is "I Hate Everyone", which I will quote later. That song really gets in your head. I need those songs; they rock with one finger out. Greg's comin down here in a day or two. So many yays. Boys can be silly. I don't know. I'm glad mine's not silly all the time. Pretty much everyone at govies school called my sis Kristen and asked if I was her younger sister. I was pissed about both. I seriously wanted to correct them every time. I corrected them when they asked if I was younger. Come on. Her name is 'ir' not 'ri' so you've gotta be myslexic to pronounce it wrong. My cat's not being very cute, with her ugly white belly showing. I really don't like her. I hate her ugly little paws especially. And her loud purring. And how soft and squishy she is. Ok, I'm gonna work on some writing. Sayonara!

All the people on the street
I hate you all
And the people that I meet
I hate you all
And the people that I know
I hate you all
And the people that I don't
I hate you all

--I Hate Everyone by Get Set Go--

I changed my lj layout today. It's kinda cool. I almost wish I was back in school, just cause there's stuff to do. This summer hasnt been too bad though. I just wish I'd gotten a job. Ah well. My cousins are coming down here thursday. I think when they come, they're gonna convince us to take them to The Monkey Club (Monkey Business). It's kinda funny. Maybe this time they'll actually dance with someone. They're such dorks. I don't believe the youngest one is 13 though. He's 10. Like forever. He won't ever be older than that. My mom said one day he'll be 35 and married, but I just can't see it. I think it's weird that we probably wont ever play the paper wars game again. Paper wars is a game where we split into two teams of 3 and run around my grandma's backyard with paper weapons. It's like capture the flag. Sometimes we have a flag, or whatever we're using. We can hide it anywhere you can see it. I love our paper armory. We make shields, arrows, projectiles, swords, armor. The mosquitos sucked, but it was fun.

I think I'm gonna miss my cat when I go. I won't miss Eugene (Eustace). He's gay. No, really. Or incredibly feminine. The bugs are tapping on my window. I'm watching The Color Purple again. I gotta read the book. I haven't read much this summer. I just didn't have any interesting books. I might go to Barnes and Noble tomorrow and find a good one. I think I can hear my cat purring from her basket. She knocked over her food last night and it's all over the floor. But I'm too lazy to pick it up and she just eats it off the floor, so it's all good. It's kinda funny. She's so fat. I love her. I should make her into an icon, heh. I need to clean my room like no other.

I dug up a lot of my old notebook stuff. I actually think I could use some of it. I know most of it's crap, but it's my crap. I found this icon on quizilla somewhere. I thought it was cool. I already feel like I need new icons. Ok, enough boring you all. I'd better get back to work. Gah I don't want to.

"Every living creature on this Earth dies alone." -Donnie Darko

"I think it pisses God off if you walk by a field with flowers the color of purple and don't notice." -The Color Purple

Could you not be sad
Could you not break down
After all I won't let go
Until you're safe and sound
Until you're safe and sound
There's beauty in release
There's no one left to please
But you and me
---Safe and Sound

God I want to play Silent Hill so bad right now. I stayed up all night last night reading and I am soooo tired right now. I figure I'll go to bed early tonight and try and get back to a more regular sleep schedule. I'll probably need to get up earlier next week when my cousins come anyway. Ah, just saw a scary movie commercial. Every time I see ads for Pulse I want to play Fatal Frame, because it's infinitely better and scarier. Damnit I need a PS2. I just dug up a bunch of my older story ideas, so I'm gonna go write. I know, I should be working on the contests, but I really dont have much motivation. I mostly just updated so I could post these Donnie Darko quotes anyway. Sayonara.

"My parents divorced. My mom had to get a restraining order against my dad. He has emotional problems." "Oh I have those too, what kind does he have?" "He stabbed my mom in the chest 4 times." "..."

"Donnie Darko? What kind of name is that? Sounds like a superhero." "What makes you think I'm not?"

"What do you think about during school?" "I think about girls a lot." "What about your family?" "I think about fucking a lot." "I asked you about your family." "No, I don't think about fucking my family, that's gross."

"Smurfs are asexual. They dont have anything under those little white shorts. That's what's so illogical about being a smurf. What's the point of living if you don't have a dick?"

"I'll tell you what he said! He asked me to forcibly insert the Life Line card into my anus!"

-----Donnie Darko

So I just beat Illusion of Gaia for SNES. It's a lot like the old SNES Zeldas. It was kinda funny. The plot was cool, but the characters were kinda dumb. The stuff they did seemed kinda random. In a comical way though. But I liked the game overall. I love how herbs are the universal video game healer. I want a video game where either the herbs are poisonous or they atcually make the characters high. Like, they have "special powers" when they've got "special herbs". That would be cool. The Golden Herb and Drunk Man and Stoner Boy would make up the Super Inebriation Team. They'd meet at the Fortress of Hallucinations. I think I need to make this a book. Just kidding. That's all for now.

"You got one yummy, roasted leg of yak!" -Illusion of Gaia
"Or I think I'll untie your bowtie, and embarass you, in public. Or maybe I'll touch your chest. Or maybe I'll slap your face a bit, and there's nothing, nothing you can do. Maybe I'll bend down and um, untie and tie your shoes. Or maybe one more thing, just do this, yeah, just mess with your hair. Yeah." -Home Movies

Go here. From my friend Alex. Just go. Do it! Do it nOW!

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Snow Falling on Cedars is a good movie. I'd like to read the book. My cousins are coming in a week, and my sis is going away in 2. I actually worked on my writing today, editing mostly. I had to cut 1000 words from my short story, which is hard, cause 5,000 words is usually the limit. Oh well. I found out that cheese isn't good for more than 2 weeks. I was playing Zelda earlier and named Link RIDGRACR as a joke. It was only mildly amusing cause I hate how slow Ocarina can be. I wish I could play Majora with the fly and run fast codes. Gah nothing good's been on tv all day. I'm kinda bored. I don't really want to submit my writing. I don't think anything I wrote will be accepted. I guess I have to though.

I'm still not sure if I like my haircut. I still can't believe I found an ewok plushie. Yay for disneyworld. I should probably be writing or something right now. I guess I might go paint or something. So here are my translated lyrics of I Do (from online translation sites, so I don't know how accurate it is). Sayonara.

I do, I do, emerge from the bottom to fight
and then to go up higher than ever before
I do, I do, watch the future and smile
without fearing to go higher.

--I Do by Ilaria Graziano

Yeah, I know, I should be asleep right now. But I was feeling creative. Sometimes I wonder if I should be an art major. I painted 4 pictures, 2 of which I really like. I know I should be focusing my creativity on writing, but because I actually have pressure to work on it, I can't. I can only write 1 1/2 pages before I stop. Oh well, I started a few stories with basic ideas in the last week or two. I think I like painting the most. I draw when I have something in mind, well in front of me, and if I don't I paint something vaguely abstract. I'll probably actually do stuff tomorrow. Heh heh. I need some new quotes. I might have a few for this entry, but I need some new ones for my profile. I would make some new icons, but I don't have any ideas for new ones. Ok, maybe I'll upload a few I found. That's a nice bunch of icons there. I'm actually looking forward to the fall. There must be something wrong with me. Hee hee, I cheated the room system. Yay for boyfriends with apartments! Screw Davis. Screw it hard in the ass with a giant inner tube. I'm on a mission to find the translated lyrics of this one Italian song, I Do, by Ilaria Graziano. But it's nowhere. I wish I spoke Italian. Oh well. Well, I'm not that tired but I should go to sleep anyway. Sayonara.

I'm going away
It's not that I want to
It's just time to go
I swear that I'll be back soon
Before falling leaves

September rain
I'll be there with you
Yes, I'm sorry, don't worry, good-bye
September days
No sighs and no sad tomorrow
Home in September rain

---September Rain, by The Brilliant Green

So I'm up early. My sis and mom are in New York, and they saw a cool pair of sneakers and called to ask if I liked them. I don't think my cat's stopped purring since I got back. (I got back last night, if the fact that I'm posting didnt clue you in.) Now it's back to... actually doing things. I'm way behind on my writing. Oh well. Oh yeah, I think I inherited my mom's red minivan syndrome. Me and Greg were walking in his neighborhood and we found this cat at someone's house. He walked over to us and followed us home, so we kept him. We put up flyers and talked to the people who owned the house and all, but he seems to be a stray. He's a tabby Persian and his name is Captain Murphy (as in Sealab 2021). He's coming to Greg's apartment in the fall.

Heh heh, Tomcats is on tv right now. I should probably go eat breakfast or something soon. It's nice to be home, even though I miss Greg. Wow my cat is a loud purrer.I guess I might update later. Bye all.

"Monkey me harder, Shelby!"

It's pretty cool finding out your sister knows exactly how you feel. It's nice knowing someone has been where you are. And it's nice to finally realize some things aren't perfect, but it's okay not to be. I have reaffirmed Heaven's Not Enough as my favorite song. So I’m just sitting here eating Nerds and watching tv, cause I’m bored. I should do something. I finally fixed my penguin pants though. Now those pants can live forever. I think I might need to be buried in them. No, I’d leave them to whatever person they fit the best. No need to waste them. Ha, I wonder if I could actually make them last... that’d be an interesting project. I should go pick some writing contests to enter. I may update later though from continuing boredom.

"She says that love is for fools who fall behind." -Shimmer
"Is this the answer? It's not perfect. But I love it."
"It's the crazy ones who have the good pills." -Sex and the City

So. Hi all. I've been back on Hilton Head for a while, and things are alright or awful, depending on the minute. Won't complain or be emo, just gonna say life sucks a lot right now. Even though I'm gone from college for now. Oh well, life's not supposed to be great, but at least it's alright this minute. I just started reading the Japanese book Greg gave me while playing Zelda in japanese, which helped a lot for learning katakana and hiragana. I like learning Japanese; it's pretty cool. Zelda is funny; it's like katakana katakana hiragana kanji kanji kanji ah stop kanjiing at me katakana kanji kanji kanji. So bored. I saw the awesomest ninja movie recently; I think it was called Kunoichi or something like that. Hee hee. Their ninja attacks were awesome. I forgot how good The Sixth Sense is. Haley Joel Osmond is a really good actor. That or the movie plots he's in are good. Weird, I just looked in the mirror and liked how I looked. Glad that feeling's gone now though. Well, I'm done boring you. Just wanted to let you all know I'm still alive. And have some good quotes.

"The walls we build around us to keep the sadness out, also keep out the joy." -Jim Rohn

"Clothes make the man. Naked people have little or no influence in society." -Mark Twain

"I'm afraid of hurting people and afraid of not doing what I need to do for fear of hurting people." -The traveling death and resurrection show by Ariel Gore.

"I mean for christ's sake, if I had known before that I was the damn problem, I would have given up waiting for things to get better. What a phenomenal waste of time." -anon.

"I thought I sent you to Switzerland you little snucklesbutt." -Back to the Future 2

I am going to share a part of me right now. It's not your job to listen, but it feels right to post it. Openly, without regrets or shame or fear. I want to do that from now on. I want to feel free to be myself. I hope I'm taking a step in the right direction.

Everything is a terrible waste. It’s your job to waste as little as possible and hope that everything is not for nothing. We all have to keep hoping and praying and waiting for some higher thing, something better than ourselves to tell us everything will be alright. It’s our job to realize that when that doesn’t ever happen, it’s still our job to keep going, on our own. To keep living every day with the pain and joy of it all and walking and searching for something to make it all worthwhile. For something we can pour all our sorrow, all our happiness, and all our love into. all our hopes, fears, turn them into something so deeply and sweetly true we know that even if everything isn’t alright, even if nothing is right and all around us the world is breaking into pieces, even if inside us everything we know and have and love is being slowly destroyed, there is something still out there or inside to live for and keep hoping and fighting for. You just have to hope you find that one facet of truth in the world before the pain of living takes its toll on you and you’re too broken to look up and see the most beautiful sight in the world and you don’t even know it’s too late. If there is any mercy you won’t know it’s too late. But sometimes there is no mercy. Sometimes we have to keep going even when we know that the world isn’t fair right down to the depths of our soul. We must. It is inevitable. But not in a forceful violent way. In a way that keeps you going, because you think I must go on no matter what, just because. You have to make your own because. Or be lucky enough to find it somewhere deep down inside of yourself, or have it awakened by some wonderful truth. We just have to keep on living and hoping. That is life. The living and keeping on. That is being human. What makes it worthwhile is finding that truth and finding something to make that living good and true and more than right, more than fine. Closer to perfection that you think you’re worthy of. Maybe we’re none of us worthy of what we receive. How have we ever improved the earth, yet we still remain her keeper. Because the good ones keep that hope, that one day we can truly be the guardians of the world and be trusted to do this and be able to do this. For ourselves, for the world, for everything. For life is infinite and precious, and we cannot waste it. To waste life and the precious irreplaceable things is to spit in the face of those lovely things and to be truly not worthy of them. You have to say, if I’m offered this lovely gift, I will not waste it. I will not do myself and this wonder and everything the disservice of saying no. because you can’t just keep saying no. you have to accept, and let go, and give in. no matter how scary that is. No matter how much your head tells you no and people tell you no and the voices tell you no. you have to listen to your heart, no matter how easy and simple that may be or seem. For in the end, it really is that simple. Follow your heart. Your heart will show you how not to waste the precious gift of life we all have been given. It’s not so hard as all it seems to be. Jump. Just jump.

"I think the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own life and then make the choice to share it with other people." –wisest thing I’ve ever seen on livejournal.

My computer decided to hate me. It now says "You want to play music on iTunes? Hell no! I have broken song syndrome (BSS) so no music for you!" The songs are all broken up and crappy sounding. No idea why. At least I finally finished my paper, in around 1 1/2 hours. I want to draw something so bad. I also want to write something. Gah I miss being creative. I had a really good day though. I like making the whole campus orange and tasting the rainbow. I have to thank Alicia for the best image ever: Jen kissing Greg. Wrong on so many levels, yet strangely hilarious. Oh yeah, and sorry I havent been online for a while, it was hard during spring break and then my computer had issues. So yeah, sorry, I'll skim last week's entries. That's all for now, love and peace! "The magic 8 ball wants some ass!" "Need change for a $4?" "Have sex dammit! You've been alive for 20 minutes so why can't you have sex!" -all Greg. God he's good for my quotes list.

What is it about sad songs that just appeals to something in the soul? Maybe it's just my soul. I have to go do a Stats project I have no motivation to do. I have had very little motivation this past week or two to do homework. That really sucks, cause I've had some major stuff due and I dont know how I got all of it done. I love my new icon, but I need a new one. I'm thinking of bringing back the ewok icon again. It will be when you least expect it though. It is a ninja ewok. I had such a craving for Passion and Maybe we could go back to then yesterday, but I couldnt listen to them so I got kinda pissed. I think I'm addicted to some songs; if I don't get my fix I'm screwed. I really hate Comp class. FRS I can handle, but not when combined with the Comp. Comp suxorz the big one1111. So yeah, spring break next week, and I am counting the classes I have to go. I lucked out, I get out of half my classes this week and the rest are fairly easy, once I get my various projects done.

Time for me to go work on stats. I hate group projects. I really do. When I'm grown up, I am never working in a group. Ever. Even if I have to do the whole thing myself, if group projects are this horrible and frequent in real life, I am seriously going to flip a shit. Oh, one more thing- I'm starting to learn Japanese katakana! It's really fun trying to read things. The scribbles have meaning now!!! C'est tout pour maintenant, Love and peace!

"No one can tell what will happen in the future... Nobody knows hwy he chose to die, the things we said meant nothing now he's underground, a lonely death within shadows. I never dreamed..." -I Never Dreamed, The Brilliant Green. I know I've quoted this before, but it's really just one of my favorite songs right now and its sad tone really appeals to me quite a lot lately.